It’s 5 am. I’m wide awake again. In the dark, I hear my wife breathing beside me, sound asleep. I close my eyes, take deep breaths, and try to empty my mind. It never works. I can’t stop the thoughts. How did I get here? Last year, I turned forty and stopped being able to... Continue Reading →
And did you get what you wanted from this life, even so? I did. And what did you want? To call myself beloved, to feel myself beloved on the earth.
M is turning seven next week. For her birthday, she asked for some animatronic plastic junk she saw on the Disney channel, but I haven’t decided whether to get it for her yet. She’s not sleeping in her own room, so I’m using the toy as motivation. It’s not working. She wakes up every morning... Continue Reading →